Bad Life Now....

I never intend to have a unorganized life, I never intend to have a bad life, I never intend to have a broke life. I never intend to complicated my life and my family life. I never intend to have these all. Never ever cross my mind to have these all. But now, these all things happen to me. I very mad with these all. I hate these all. I try to be positive and more positive and much more positive in my life. But still these messing with my life. Still stealing my energy. Every breath I take feel like a hard breath, a deep hard breath.

Yes, I' now in negative mood.... Now and then... But I will never cease to believe that I can conquer these all problem. Easier to say than done. What shall I do?. Whatever the circumstance I will trying to be positive... Whatever the circumstance. Nothing will derail me from my trail.

Unsuit For A Manager

10:00 AM - 21 November 2012

I really don't know why this company choose him as a manager. He has so many defect in his ability as a manager. He barely know anything about managing at all, not even a tiny bit. He really have lack ability to operate a computer, even to close a window in Windows XP!!!. How can the owner of this company select him as a manager?. This really bothering me.

I don't know how the owner of this company think about him. I don't know what kind of a specialty of him that enchant Her (Yes, this company owner is a woman). Maybe she get a wrong consultant in getting a manager. But I still don't get it. I don't really know. And I'm getting on my nerve because he sometimes disturbing me to teach him about the computer. He really wasting my time.

Working life is so absurd.

Morning in the Kardopa

10:04 AM 20 November 2012

I'm in Kardopa this morning. What do I want to do know?. I'm going to finish the project by tutoring the whole company employee to use my software but there are so many obstacle that get me distracted from finishing it. First, my computer is infected with too many virus. How can I distribute my software if it is infected with virus?. So I must clean my computer first. Second, there are some unworking module in my software, so I must repair them. Third, I have not yet importing the old data to my software. hmmm....

Honestly, these problem are there because of my lack focus and my procrastination. Too much wasting time in gaming, too much wasting time in playing quitar, too much wasting time to do something not useful. I know I must change and now I try to do the change in my life but it took so much time and perseverance. I'm trying to be positive and do the right thing. I know it will cost my life, but whatever the cost, I will be what I wan to be. Well, I just need much more time in repairing this awful life now.