Bad Life Now....

I never intend to have a unorganized life, I never intend to have a bad life, I never intend to have a broke life. I never intend to complicated my life and my family life. I never intend to have these all. Never ever cross my mind to have these all. But now, these all things happen to me. I very mad with these all. I hate these all. I try to be positive and more positive and much more positive in my life. But still these messing with my life. Still stealing my energy. Every breath I take feel like a hard breath, a deep hard breath.

Yes, I' now in negative mood.... Now and then... But I will never cease to believe that I can conquer these all problem. Easier to say than done. What shall I do?. Whatever the circumstance I will trying to be positive... Whatever the circumstance. Nothing will derail me from my trail.

Alpha Male

4:40 PM 22 November 2012

I read some part of becoming an Alpha Male in an ebook. Now I know, that whole the time in my life I was a Beta Male not an Alpha Male.
Act like a nice guy for every girl I've met, and often saying yes to them. That are the act of a Beta Male. My act describe me as a submissive one not like a dominant one.

Now, I'm trying to become an Alpha one. :D

Now I've procrastinating again. I'm doing nothing for my application. I've restrain myself for doing anything useful for mylife. I wake up late this morning only because I read an erotic novel that caught my attention. I really lack of self control.

This lack of focus really consume my time and myself.

Black Out For More Than 12 Hour

12:58 PM 21 November 2012

I really forget to create a note about a black out for more than 12 hour in my place in Medan, Indonesia just about couple hours before. I'm in the office right now, so I don't know how the progress of our place good grieve black out now.

That black out really kill my little planning for doing my important job. Now I get the meaning of 'create plan B' for every plan. Let my fail planning aside, 12 hours for black out? What an amazing place I stay now. Maybe this month really a black out 'season' like some statement I heard before from some college girl.

I guess I should prepare my umbrella for this black out season or my be some sweater.....

Unsuit For A Manager

10:00 AM - 21 November 2012

I really don't know why this company choose him as a manager. He has so many defect in his ability as a manager. He barely know anything about managing at all, not even a tiny bit. He really have lack ability to operate a computer, even to close a window in Windows XP!!!. How can the owner of this company select him as a manager?. This really bothering me.

I don't know how the owner of this company think about him. I don't know what kind of a specialty of him that enchant Her (Yes, this company owner is a woman). Maybe she get a wrong consultant in getting a manager. But I still don't get it. I don't really know. And I'm getting on my nerve because he sometimes disturbing me to teach him about the computer. He really wasting my time.

Working life is so absurd.

Morning in the Kardopa

10:04 AM 20 November 2012

I'm in Kardopa this morning. What do I want to do know?. I'm going to finish the project by tutoring the whole company employee to use my software but there are so many obstacle that get me distracted from finishing it. First, my computer is infected with too many virus. How can I distribute my software if it is infected with virus?. So I must clean my computer first. Second, there are some unworking module in my software, so I must repair them. Third, I have not yet importing the old data to my software. hmmm....

Honestly, these problem are there because of my lack focus and my procrastination. Too much wasting time in gaming, too much wasting time in playing quitar, too much wasting time to do something not useful. I know I must change and now I try to do the change in my life but it took so much time and perseverance. I'm trying to be positive and do the right thing. I know it will cost my life, but whatever the cost, I will be what I wan to be. Well, I just need much more time in repairing this awful life now.

Weird things for my computer

It's already a near complete 2 days my computer with Microsoft Windows XP become weird. every time I delete some file to free the drive space, the free space gotten filled again with unknown file. I don't know what kind of file that do this nasty things to my precious computer.

I suspect that some kind of virus that do this. Maybe It's the only possibility cause. Only one day before the 'tragedy' I've finished my computer fresh installed with XP. I've installed a trial Anti Virus, a Kaspersky Pure anti virus. But not yet finish to update it. Hmmm... It really could be because of that damn nasty virus.

This is really a total time wreck for me. With a malfunction computer, there are none that I can do because all my work always related with this computer.

This is really getting on my nerve... When I try to publish this posting, an error happening and all the word I've write lost in the wind.. argghhhh... This totally turn to a headache for me.

Calm down o myself. Don't let this circumstance ruin your mood. Be patient and wait. Now, I just need to wait my anti virus finishing its update and do some browsing in internet to fill my vacant time. So, while I'm waiting for it, let me do writing some articles and anything others. Well, this maybe a full boring day for me.


Have a nice Boring Day myself...:D

Your Mind Determine Your Health

From my experience I've learned that our mind is much more having the role as the agent who determine our health condition than our physical body limitation such as disease or weakness. Just a having a problem that bother your mind will making your body become weak and limp. Have you encounter a really big problem and feel your body become numb, weak, and limp when you've trying so hard to solve it but you failed and found yourself in the dead end? Or have you ever think so hard on a subject you want to know but you've still failed miserably even to grasp a tiny of it and surrender to try again and then you feel an ache in a part or some part of your body?. Our mind is like a center for command control of our whole body. When the center is broken the whole part that is controlled from it become broken too.

If you want to have a good health, you must feed your mind with a good mental food. Here some mental food for your mind:

Have a Positive Thinking

Positive thinking is like a good and healty food for your body. When you give a good food for your body, it will grow in good way and go in good condition. Never let a negative thinking having a room in your head. having a negative thinking in your brain is like having a rotten food in your refrigerator, it will give a bad odor to other food. Negative thinking will pollute all of your mind.

Give Exercise for Your Mind

Do something that can challenge your main. Learn something new. Do something beyond your ordinary life. Your mind is just like your body, it need some mentally exercise to keep healhty.

Be Social

We are Homo Socialis, we live in the group of human that influences each other. When we connected with other, we stimulate our mind and grow mentally. Find friend who will give you positive influence to enhance and strengthen your mind.

Have a Nice Day...:D ;)

Blood Phobia

When I'm in a Radio Studio, I heard something about Cesarean Section, so I rushly go to find some article about it. But when I read some part of the article, my feet become numb and my body become weak... It is because I have a bit of phobia with something related with blood. Yes, the article have many part that tell about blood, surgery, or anything like that. How I can stand to read the article?, I even haven't finishing  read half of the article. Well, well,.... maybe it's too much for me now. I'll read it again next time and hope that I have more strength to face it again.

I playing warcraft game from 20.00 to 01.00 WIB. I really on my conscience that I wasting my time for it but I still can't manage this game addiction of mine. When something become habitual, it really hard to be changed. I do realize that.. I really lack of self control.
I need to change whatever the cost or I will be drawn in it and wasting my entire life. I need to change now.

This is my first post about my daily life

I decide to create another blog as my daily diary. I don't want to mix all things in one blog.
Ok.... i think this introduction will be enough for myself...:D.



Have a Nice Day...:D ;)